Becoming free from those places we are stuck

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More on the desert theme which is central to Lent.

The original desert experience was that of the Hebrew slaves who escaped from Egypt. But Egypt has always been understood as more than just a place. Indeed the word for “Egypt” in Hebrew – Mitzraim – means “a narrow place.” So “going out from Egypt” can mean going from a narrow place where we are stuck, from repeating patterns of behaviour, from a sense of ourselves as weak or defective, to a wider sense,  a place where we are free. The desert is a symbol for the space to face what holds us back, which we often think cannot be changed and will keep us stuck forever: 

The only permanent thing about our behaviour patterns

is our belief that they are so

Moshe Feldenkrais 

Sunday Quote : Life is always changing

You live,

not by securing yourself against impermanence, 

but by finding yourself as impermanence

Michael Stone, Awake in the World

Our cat Barney  who died on Tuesday, aged 19

Saturday: Finding ourselves again

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One of the nice things about a Saturday after an intense week is that we can come back to ourselves, and find within us a centre that is always there, even when we lose sight of it:

I lost my way, I forgot to call on your name. The raw heart beat against the world, and the tears were for my lost victory. But you are here. You have always been here. The world is all forgetting, and the heart is a rage of directions, but your name unifies the heart, and the world is lifted into its place.

Blessed is the one who waits in the traveller’s heart for his turning

Leonard Cohen, Poem#50 from The Book of Mercy

Today…Just let it be

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An inner voice asked, ‘What would happen if, in this moment, I didn’t try to do anything, to make anything different?’ I immediately felt the visceral grip of fear and then a familiar sinking hole of shame – the very feelings I had been trying to avoid for as long as I could remember.

But then the same inner voice whispered very quietly, familiar refrain, ‘Just let it be.

Tara Brach

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Stop forcing life…. observe and let it emerge

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A nice simple description of what meditation is, but also what the correct position towards life is:

It’s more for me as with going into a forest:
if you sit quietly for a long time,
the life around you emerges.

Jame Hirshfield

The value of being lost

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  A little more on wandering in a desert  or going through a barren or difficult period in our lives

Not knowing what to do is just as real and just as useful as knowing what to do.

Not knowing stops us from taking false directions. Not knowing what to do, we start to pay real attention. Just as people lost in the wilderness, on a cliff face or in a blizzard pay attention with a kind of acuity that they would not have if they thought they knew where they were. Why? Because for those who are really lost, their life depends on paying real attention. If you think you know where you are, you stop looking.

David Whyte