Fragile

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Yesterday I got the news that the mother of a good friend had passed away, suddenly, without warning.  I had a lovely meal with her and her husband just last Thursday in Geneva, having flown in earlier that day from Ireland. We had spoken of the launch of her website and plans for the future, and we had a lovely, carefree evening. Then yesterday  this news came, reminding me of the fragile nature of life, and how our plans can be interrupted. As I drove home five swans flew low over the road. I thought of the poem by Yeats, The Wild Swans of Coole. In Celtic myths these beautiful birds frequently symbolized the inner life or the soul. They were especially associated with the big feast of  Samhain,  the start of November. In the poem they fly away dramatically,  embodying some of the elements of this life – touched by its  beauty we wish to grasp it, to live it fully, but it also moves on, with aspects  out of reach. We awake some days to find that all has changed.

The trees are in their autumn beauty,  The woodland paths are dry,
Under the October twilight the water Mirrors a still sky;
Upon the brimming water among the stones
Are nine-and-fifty Swans.

The nineteenth autumn has come upon me Since I first made my count;
I saw, before I had well finished, All suddenly mount
And scatter wheeling in great broken rings
Upon their clamorous wings.

I have looked upon those brilliant creatures, And now my heart is sore.
All’s changed since I, hearing at twilight, The first time on this shore,
The bell-beat of their wings above my head,
Trod with a lighter tread.

Unwearied still, lover by lover, They paddle in the cold
Companionable streams or climb the air; Their hearts have not grown old;
 Passion or conquest, wander where they will,
Attend upon them still.

But now they drift on the still water, Mysterious, beautiful;
Among what rushes will they build, By what lake’s edge or pool
Delight men’s eyes when I awake some day
To find they have flown away?

photo dirk ingo franke

wanting to be a pleasant feeling

Our attitude is frequently one of wanting to get it done, wanting to have it finished in order to be peaceful, to relax, or to enjoy ourselves….

We want to be a feeling.

Rushing along to be something in the next moment, we fail to open and appreciate this moment.

Ajahn Sucitto, Turning the Wheel of Truth

Not getting too fixed today

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The real art of conducting consists in transitions

Gustav Mahler.

We just don’t know

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Letting there be room for not knowing is the most important thing of all. When there’s a big disappointment, we don’t know if that’s the end of the story. It may just be the beginning of a great adventure. Life is like that. We don’t know anything. We call something bad; we call it good. But really we just don’t know

Pema Chödrön, When things Fall Apart

Changing like the weather

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The weather has turned quite windy with heavy showers here in Ireland and they say that it is finally going to get colder. Indeed the leaves are turning colour and falling, although much later than we are accustomed to in this part of the world. It is a change from the last two years and people would be quite happy if the good weather continued for another few weeks. We have a natural tendency to try and hold on to,  and make permanent, things that are going well. However, as the old text reminds us, it is when we understand impermanence that our minds cease to be contentious and we stop fighting with how things are:

When you feel that you are making emotions and thoughts solid,

contemplate impermanence as a reminder that all is in flux.

Sakyong Mipham Rinpoche

 

….separate

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At the end of the day, we discover that humility

the strength to separate our sense of the meaning of life  from what we do –

is the only real answer to lifelong happiness.

Joan Chittister, Aspects of the Heart

photo xlibber