Do not now look for the answers. They cannot now be given to you because you could not live them. It is a question of experiencing everything. At present you need to live the question. Perhaps you will gradually, without even noticing it, find yourself experiencing the answer, some distant day.
Rilke
Mindfulbalance 
I have just been reading many of your postings, you have a beautiful style of writing, forming thoughts and understanding. I too have a huge interest in reflections of life, its background, its present, and future. Thinking of the future is only wondering, as you said we have to live them to know the answers.