It’s like driving a car at night.
You never see further than your headlights,
but you can make the whole trip that way.
E. L. Doctorow, 1931 – 2015, American novelist
It’s human to have expectations, but clinging to them causes suffering.
If we can loosen our grip on expectations and settle down on whichever side of the balance we fall at this moment, we find unshakable peace of mind, and a truly stable life unfolds. [Meditation] is ceasing to be a person always gauging gain and loss and evaluating life according to such calculations.
Kosho Uchiyama Roshi, Zen Teaching of homeless Kodo
The sense of unworthiness, it seems, comes out of our being talked out of, trained out of, conditioned out of trusting our natural being. It is the result of being turned away from ourselves, taught to distrust ourselves.
We are worthy of letting go of our unworthiness. If we did nothing but practice letting go of unworthiness, much of the stuff we’re working so hard to clear away would have no support system. We would have more room to grow. Consciously we surrender unworthiness as it arises, not entertaining it with the ego’s list of credits. the work which will awaken us is that of becoming keenly aware of unworthiness without judging it. Gently, with patience and a lot of love, we acknowledge the being we really are. As a friend puts it, “Always try to see yourself through God’s eyes”.
Stephen Levine